God os just not fair, finding hope when life doesn’t make sense

I just RECIEVED this book from http://www.booklook.com. I am going to try and get into doing chapter review for this book.


I really want to improve on my reviewing.


More when first chapter


dreary day

Rain, sleet, snow.. movies, what else could a day bring..

I usually like snow, but, in am so over it. Looking forward to the sunshine, warm days to be outside…

I have not gotten up on my leg in over a week, going bit the bullet and wear it tomorrow. Need to get up and moving..

This week with the “mini”  operation, added to the MINI complication, the mini stay in rain/cold has me in a MINI mood change.. all to change a..have to..


So I also will go to the YMCA this week, and just slowly get back into things.. I don’t want to be there for 3 hours working out so may take donut and read.

Finish this 40day challenge best I can. I will set up a self one and go from there.



I RECIEVED Lean Body Fat Wallet from http://booklookbloggers.com it was given to me free, with the understanding that I will give my own personal review. I will not receive anything else for my review. 


Lean Body Fat Wallet by: Ellie Kay & Danna Demeter

In Lean Body Fat Wallet Ellie and Danna take us through their separate struggle of body and money. They show many different steps to show us how to overcome these same struggles many of us share.

By answer questions that are asked throughout the chapters you can learn ways you may not already know for a healthier and more principally stable life. There are many questions they ask you to think about and answer. Charts to look at.

They share some of there toughest struggles to over come body and money. Through this they hope to help those that struggle with these same issues.

They first show how to discover your self then they show how to apply methods to make changes.


For me this book is a reminder of things I know. It also has shown me new way to look at things. Ways that were not working with a simple change may help.  just because some of this book I already do, there are many parts that help..

Like asking my self what do I want? What are the steps to get there?

I want to be healthier, something I have always struggled with. I can make mistakes. But to physically look at what I actually want step by step. Something new. Like they explain it didn’t happen over night, it will not change over night. I have slips and falls… get back up and restart.






my week

This was a week of pops, burns, falls, I never thought I could, but did, fire department, friends, good time, laughs and music. That said God had a hand in everything that happened. Looking back, maybe I do need slow down, not that  I was going fast, but slow down to see that things are really not that bad for me. Sometime I get caught up in the poor me. Then I hear a friends mom is dying, a man has cancer, a little girl is fighting cancer, no many others are battling a lot more then me. So I need a new washer, not a huge deal. So I feel, I didn’t break anything. So I had to call the fire department , better safe then oh crap I burnt the land lords house down. Maybe I fell out of the good eating and back into the trap I tend to go to comfort foods. Tomorrow is a new day. I can really start day over any time.. I started it over a few dozen on Friday..as I sit here and look out the window, washer siting there for now, flags flying.. cars going by.. I know that I have what I need a house, food, and clothing. ( and my meds. ) so what do I have to worry about, really nothing as what needs to happen will with God’s help.



It has been roller coaster.

I have been going to the YMCA a Lt. Yeah I enjoy working out.

Reading a lot.


Need to get into better routine though..


Well off to read.



my day

The day started out really rough. I wont share why. But I can say that though pray and a few vents and saying sorry. It became a good day. I know that eating a hamburger and bread make my tummy feel blah. ( note to self no read meat and bun same time).

The VOA, found a few things, hope to go back and find a few more things.

Then off to Kroger and found some frozen gluten dinner rolls. (thanx to Alex).

Then pizza for dinner n coke…


New day tomorrow


A Home For Lydia by Vannetta Chapman

” A Home for Lydia” is the 2nd book in the Pebble Creek series by Vendetta Chapman. I suggest you rad book #1 A promise for Miriam, before reading this book. It is an introduction to Lydia. This series is based on a fictional Amish family(families.

In A home for Lydia, she is now out of school and working at Plain Cabins. She works to help her family. Due to the death of the owner. Aaron arrives, he is the nephew of the owner. He is sent by his father to help his aunt and her children.

Aaron and Lydia do not see things the same way. Aaron is frustrated at what he sees when he arrives. Lydia is frustrated at Aaron for the way he begins to care for  The Plain Cabins. It takes many things throughout the Amish community for them both to see things.

There is Gracie, Clara, Miriam, and a Varity of family members that have side issues.

In this book I like to see the growth of Gracie age 9. Though she was not a main character, the author showed her continue to grow from the first book.

I also like how this book is more true to the Amish life and shows that they deal with the same issues as English people do. I also enjoy how they show how close to God they are. In one point the Bishop talks with Gracie when she mentions Gus her donkey. This part really touched me.

I am ready to read the next book and continue to see this community grow and share how they help each other.